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Failure or Time to Let GO…

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Failure or Time to Let GO…
The last couple of months I have been tossing around feelings and mental processes in regards to what I seem to deem as failure/s on the road called My life. In this day many people spouting new age beliefs about there is no such thing as failure? Then why is it a deeply programmed system within us? Why does failure appear constantly in the back grounds of our minds playing out causing giant waves of guilt flowing over about everything we say, eat, do or even think?

On this road called my life I walk “The Path”, The Red Road which I have learned from teachers of the First Nations People’s of many tribes. The road unlike new age is not meant to make you feel good, it is meant to bring you into relationship with all that exists and the long term is to bring you into complete and total balance, to the center of your personal medicine or wheel. Unlike a see saw a wheel pivoting on the center can become extremely off balanced with a wrong step, even small.

Take a round disked object and place it in the tip of your little finger in the very middle section make sure the disk does not have a hole. The Cherokee tell us that our wheel is suspended in the universe from the four direction edges that anything can break the string attached to each direction. You can see that your place on the wheel in the middle takes awareness, stability, attention because in one minute the whole wheel can fall from its balanced place. When the wheel leans to one direction because we lose our ability to be in balance because we have “checked” out in some manner something has stolen and is holding our attention or energy away from the balanced place in the center of our wheel which was holding everything in relationship to us in balance. This cheese if you will, will slide of the cracker. You will then have to work very hard to get that piece of cheese not only back onto that cracker but you will have to do it with will / attention because you cannot step off to gather the experiences or cheese to put it back on, mostly you will not have the awareness or attention by practice needed to complete such a feat.

So now we have another issue that comes into play called: holding on. Holding on is not the same as balance or center. Holding on is a reaction to the world we live in when what we do, are taught does not exactly work in our big picture of keeping what we want. It happened by our attention being grabbed away from our self, our balance, our center and yes we allowed it by not having constant awareness. We may feel we have been caught off guard this is a figment of our illusion of blame. We choose for whatever reason to be pulled off or allow ourselves to be pulled off by what we may also be called drama. When we take a bold step towards what has grabbed our attention, the wheel leans and the experiences, resources, relationships scoot to the edge when we see this we stop where we are so that they do not fall off, that we do not loose them and we begin an old pattern of holding on to. We stay that way sometimes for an entire life, never either allowing things to fall off into the abyss or to take a step back into balance. Holding on is a reaction to loosing what we have, however it is our blame since we were the ones that created our person wheel to become so far out of balance as to allow things to slide off. In a balanced place on the center of our person wheel there is not loose or gain and there is plenty of room for everything along the circle of our wheel. Where our bundles of experiences, relationships, resources are placed by spirit during our life and when it becomes full then we pass gracefully on to live again with a new wheel to fill up. Holding on is a reaction to loosing something or someone.
If our ability cannot retain it, hold on to it then we move into failure pattern. If we did not want it then we can in some cases let go and if we choose to do nothing we hold on never doing anything else but that until we croak. Never moving forward, backwards or allowing new experiences. Having full possibilities and potential comes from being at the center of your personal wheel in balance with all your relations, your relationships to everything here in this world. In the biggest part of this relationship can, will include your relationship even to the grass you mow in your yard, you know the one we put toxic chemicals on every year which is a step out of balance with that grass, a step out of balance with the earth and a step out of balance in our families and pets health. We are out of balance all the time day in and out have zero awareness because we have NOT the ability to hold the attention necessary to be in balance at the center of our wheel which makes us an observer in balance with all relations. Even the grass pays when our wheel tips. When we want more and try to find ways to manipulate this world, control this world, to force this world for say more money causes a huge out of balance with all the relations. Something will have to be offered to create a new balance on the wheel from the force of say the money to be brought on the wheel in an unnatural way. Something will have to suffer in the re-balancing, there is always a trade. Maybe the health of your child slides off the wheel because to tipped it in the direction of more money. Eventually your child dies because of that weight and pull that drove to the manipulation to misuse our energy, our attention and the tipping of our personal wheel. By the way our Wheel can cause the tipping pivoting of the Earths personal wheel because all of OUR wheels along with all living things on her are her relations and experiences. First Nation people teach me that you take something, force something and something else will pay for it to adjust or attempt to adjust the wheel back into balance.

Of Course we want what we want in that minute, that week but is it worth it in the end? Most will never know because there is not enough awareness to understand what you are trying to get versus the consequences down the road and what must be giving up. Everything that comes to you in a balance way jives with what is already have on your wheel and in your life and extreme force, conjuring will changes everything I have seen it wipe a whole wheel off, the loose of everything. You may, all of sudden get a slice of consciousness, maybe even get a blink of understanding of what has been done, but the two main stay patterns still exist in you and the strongest is that of going into holding on, do not take another step please god save my kid, but still cannot connect all the dots or adopt a center of balance to full see that your desires, want an attempts to pull them on to your wheel tilting it started to erase the child’s life from your wheel, from your reality in attempt to balance it. Then there is the anger that emerges because GOD did not save your child, because you created an out of balance wheel and the health of your kid was traded for more money, a husband, a house, another drink and whatever else we desire. I know that this seems like such a harsh way to put it but it applies to anything and everything we have a relationship with. We could lose our home in the same manner.

Please remember that I am trying to write about something that I myself have had to learn and most of this teaching does not have a language, it comes in a transfer from the teacher to the student. If it sounds like one hand clapping kind of dialog and you cannot grasp it, please just let it simmer in you and maybe it will become something from in you down the road.

The New Ager’s like to tell us that the choice is between fear and love. It seems like a simple choice; however in my teachings of what I have been taught fear is a byproduct. That our choice is to always be in balance in the center of our wheel and that is that, there is nothing worldly to gain like love or fear, good or bad ceases to exist and becomes the truth of being and is what it is, without all the labels or mess, clutter that this world makes up and we assimilate into the subconscious mind.

When something shows up that steals our untrained attention and we react out of fear which is the byproduct it underwent the deeper layers of emotion we could say or unconscious behavior, our auto pilot default system first. The fear, savior, do something always is the first defense what we do not usually see or feel are the under working chemicals / emotions that when we build awareness and personal work with ourselves will show themselves. So we have fear which is the first defense, the next layer down is the anger, which can flare up if the fear activation, the do something does not hold up. Then we use the anger default program and usually whatever made it through can be stopped once we over react, become a nightmare or wild animal. However the deeper level that most people will never see unless they do some heavy personal work is the guilt. The anger trigger is such a strong one that it keeps anyone including ourselves from every seeing the guilt, ever. We may feel the guilt as panic attacks; I feel that most heart issues are related to the guilt program that is like a gene of some kind of genetic program within us.
We live in a way that we cannot see the guilt and in some cases there is simple no vocabulary for it, I have found in my own life that it is a societal workings and early on in your life the training of it came in looks, grunts and other non vocabulary behavior from everyone around you. Which makes it that much more complicated to bring into a frame work of understanding. This guilt not only triggers the holding on pattern but it also triggers that failure process in us and in some case the giving up which is basically no different than the holding on. Since both of them stop any progress in any direction for a length of time or life time. When we can start to notice, step into the guilt which means we are going to have to feel it, sit with it, we are not going to be able to our think through it, since it is a non verbal arrangement. Our choice to break through so that we may gain some kind of balance on our wheel in ourselves is to sit with the suffering of it, the panic of it and do nothing, offer no reaction and each time we do so we let go of it a bit more, the hold it has over us. How you came to this place does not matter, who is to blame does not matter those are reactions, illusions the subconscious needs to throw up to keep you from looking and dealing with the feeling of intensity that guilt is and the chemical triggers that our brain under goes whenever the system is breached by such things that expose it.

What I am attempting to offer here is that when we move into, we react to, we get stuck places of holding on or giving up in the process of failure that is a chemical trigger in the brain causing it to seem so much more that it is, we should sit, even lock yourself in a closet if you must, hold yourself, breath and let it go. When your wheel of life has been leaning so harshly to one side and the people, relationships, resources are sliding off the end or about to, just step back to the center, hold yourself and let go of whatever it is that may be gone now, that may have slide off and know that there is much more to add to your wheel of experiences today, tomorrow by keeping yourself aware, not giving up or holding on as reactions to failure and the inner guilt. I leave with a pray. As I know this process is walking straight up hill with no visible path kind. You have to find your own way and keep trying until your wheel is in full balance and you are the center of your personal wheel and personal universe.

May you continue to bring yourself to the center of your personal wheel in a good way. May you become balanced with all your relations in a good way. May you learn to hold your attention to the place of balance with in you, thus holding the balance for all things here in a good way. May you find your balance in a good way to hold a piece of balance for our precious Mother Earth before it is too late.
So it is, so shall it be, NOW! AHO

Grow Food, Be Free and Live For a Living,

Sickness and a Secondary Cause…

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I have taken some parts of “other” articles. Since I am not a fan of organized religion/s I am going to post parts of articles that I feel serve the purpose in which I am writing this piece about. I want to say here I wish no harm on anyone with a different twist of perspective we are all in this together trying our best to figure it all out. I am offering the link/s in the event you the reader would like to read the whole article and not just the part I am posting.

“There is definitely a relationship between healing and the need for deliverance. In my travels around the world I have discovered that many are never healed because they have not received deliverance from the spirits that made them sick. I am not saying that every disease is caused by a demon. There is a need for both natural healing and demonic healing.

Some people simply need healing from the diseases that have made them sick; others need deliverance from the spirits that have made them sick. Just the thought that demons could be behind sickness sounds radical. If that is the case, then perhaps we need a radical approach to healing.

When a demon named  Ornias harasses a young lad (who is favored Solomon) by stealing half his pay and sucking out his vitality through the thumb on his right hand, Solomon prays in the temple and receives from the Archangel Michael with the seal of God on it which will enable him to command the demons. Solomon lends the ring to the lad who, by throwing the ring at the demon stamps him with the seal and brings him under control. Then Solomon orders the demon to take the ring and similarly imprint the prince of demons. With the head demon under his command Solomon now has the entire race of demons at his bidding to build the temple. In Chapter 18 the demons of the 36 decans appear with names that sometimes seem to be conscious distortions of the traditional names for the decans and claim responsibility mostly for various ailments and pains. They provide the magical formulae by which they may be banished. For example, the thirty-third demon is Rhyx Achoneoth who causes sore throat and tonsillitis can be driven off by writing the word Leikourgos on ivy leaves and heaping them into a pile.

St. Thérèse of Lisieux includes a very interesting chapter (3) in her autobiography:

The illness which overtook me came, certainly, from the demon; furious because of your entry into the Carmel [i.e., of her sister], he was determined to take revenge on me due to all the damage that our family would cause him in the future, but he almost made me not to suffer; I went on with my schoolwork, and nobody was worried about me. It was towards the end of that year that I was attacked by a continual headache. This lasted until the Easter of 1883 … it was while I was undressing that I had a strange fit of trembling … I wish I could describe this strange illness of mine. I’m fully persuaded now, that it was the work of the devil … I was delirious nearly all the time and talking utter nonsense … often I seemed to be in a dead faint, without making the slightest movement … it seems to me that the demon had been given power over the outward part of me, but couldn’t reach neither my soul, nor my spirit, except by inspiring me very great fears of certain things.

Demonic, Unnatural or Negative energies can radiate from all places not just in the body by a force living within. Symbols, codes that have been created by rituals in the arts of black magic and satanic worship that control and have domination purpose/s. Like many of the corporation logos or sigils who design is based of ancient symbols reallocated into a modern magic form called a corporation logo or brand.

Another code which is based in heavy controversy, however to me a code is a code a symbol used for purpose of any kind of control which also most likely will include numbers whether visible or not.  I would like to bring to your consciousness the bar code. You find on everything you by also emitting a dangerous vibration to your bodies and health adding to the under discussed uses of mind control on the population by dark energies, forces that have a life of their own!

Every summer I spent with my grandmother who was an official prophet and healer hiding out in the Pentecost church. I had witness over the course of these summers her cast out during church service/s demonic spirits. I watched their forms rise up leaving the bodies and float away.  Often people were immediately healed from disease that were beyond deabilitating. In most instances no Doctor could help or find reason/s for the illness the person had. I know firsthand that these energies we call demonic, negative, unnatural can show up anywhere and everywhere causing sickness, illness, disease or pestilence. Just like being/s of light who are found in nature spirits, crystals, trees and most of the natural world. The dark beings or energies need homes as well. Symbols, boxes, possessions, art, bar codes anything and everything that man has made including our bodies are potential homes for these energies.

Drugs that block neuron transmitters leave us wide open as homes for the nastier variety of the energies. While on neuron blocker drugs they cannot be removed. Blocking the mind body connect.

Case in point is a movie based on a court case of demonic possession and the inability of the priest to remove them because the girl who was possessed was place on neuron transmitter blocking drugs like in all epilepsy and opium related drugs. This causes a block between the mind (hard drive) and the body. Once this communication is blocked the person possessed no longer has the ability to fight as a whole being or unit against energies, spirits that move into the body as a consequence of the neuron blocking drugs.

Our drug companies are making people homes for dark energies, forces or demon/s by putting us on these medications. I believe they know this on some level and do it purposefully to control us and offer the inter dimensional beings who control our world (from a place far off behind the scenes) home/s (our bodies) in which to operate the agendas, controls and of course live.

I follow the shamanic path and have given these subject years of my time. I get calls from people who suffer from minuet possession which might not even be recognized to high level possession all my life.

This blog is not meant to cause harm or scare it is meant to provide some thought in to what we are engaging in without proper education. Those dark energies and their transmissions from things can cause sickness, and if we are having trouble finding the source of our sickness or our sickness cannot be treated by the medical system, that we might be open to looking at other reasons that we are sick. Not many people want to talk about the issue and the drug connections. That we may look into what the possibility of  our own relationship to these drugs and notice in our own bodies and lives what they may be bringing about. With the possibility that the dark energies or spirits may be affecting us by the further long term and sometimes rapid decline in our health after taking medications that block neuron transmitter function.

Suggestions on actions you can take now:

If you buy new or used items get rid of bar codes and do some kind of spiritual cleansing of the item before bringing it into your home. Try a banishing prayer, spray with Holy Water from the church, I prefer smudging however I use what I have on hand. Old items with past histories, I find  especially with boxes people have used them to trap demons.

Case in point:

Grow your own food and make your own products without bar codes.

When you purchase products at the store remove bar code and company logo and place it jars other containers.

Buy black electrical tape and place over bar codes, logos on computer/s, phones, tvs, ect. Always imply with intention that you are using the tape to block any and all transmitting dark energies that come through bar codes and company logos.

Stop talking any and all drugs that block neuron transmitters in the brain now!

Lastly what I call revoke’ cations. This is something I have been working with over the last 5 years. That works only after you have attempted to apply the suggestions above. I have been using them solidly now every time I move to a new place, travel to a new place, end up staying in a new place. It came about when I had a situation with a real life vampire who was operating as a naturopathic and acupuncturist by day. At night she did two very telling things. She would travel energetically to her client’s homes and sucked energy out of them and in some case drink blood. Remember some acupuncturist use a bleeding technique to release energy from certain areas or meridians. Be careful of these practices as the blood can be used to fortify them or can be used later in some kind of ritual.

Brings us to a whole other conversation about blood being taken for testing by labs and what happens to your blood after? Also the idea of infant bloodletting when they are born, they lose a huge amount of their blood usually all over the floor in the hospital and where does it go after? How is it exposed of? For me clearly a unnecessary practice by doctors. These days I never leave my blood behind without question what may be going on with it. The common function in demonic rituals of any kind surrounds human blood and since we are living in a time where more transmissions, drugs, codes, blood sacrifices are being done and dark forces on this planet are starting to exceed the population. We need to really manage our lives differently so we do not to sub come unconsciously to everyday things (buying products with bar codes and bringing them home) that can allow the undesirable energies or spirits attached to the item or can attach themselves to humans and items.

What a revoke’cation may look like: I revoke any and all invitation made unconsciously or consciously to any energies, frequencies, beings, people, and vibrations now! I revoke any invitations made by myself or others pertaining to my space, house, room, car, animals, and my person now! I revoke and energies, vibrations, frequencies, people, beings that have been sent to me and my spaces by thoughts, feelings, sacraments, rituals now!

Try making up your own to suit your needs and space. I say this every night before I enter into sleep. Though these are not set in stones and what I am offering you is your own power in this advice I am giving about how to deal with and naturalize these unwanted energies that have the potential to steal our life essence away by the by product being an illness or disease, control our minds and cause us to react to the world in ways we do not feel good about or use us as a home.

A friend of mine tells me that “the truth will set me free and make me very miserable”. The truth is also stranger than fiction. We have to make sure that we protect ourselves from any possible approach to forces that entering into our homes, lives, bodies and the only way we can do that is to research, gather information and take steps to take control of our energy and the way we want to spend it.

The key here is to be conscious, be in the present moment and pay attention.

PS  I am still working out the links to work when clicked on, so you may have to copy / paste them into your browser to educate yourself with their information.

Grow Food, Be free and Live for a Living!


Becoming a Helper to ease Chronic Pain…

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I have spent quite a bit of my time in the last 25 years participating, apprenticing, reading, studying, and listening to teaches from First Nation groups. Most of the hands on work I have done have been in the realm of medicine (man/woman) or shamanism. Though I am not an expert as it is a lifetime journey,  I would like to share some thoughts on the idea of physical pain, pain in the body, joints that have been brought on by more than diet, injury or disease.

I am constantly educating myself in the holistic approaches looking deep into folklore, oral traditions in the last 5 years to find answers and connections to what may cause the underlining condition of pain. As I dive deeper into what information I can find on such topics and when I can directly ask questions that sometimes do get answers it all leads me into great contemplation on the matters of health, wellness from an indigenous perspective and the stories regarding it.

Today I would like to just write about one idea. Their story/s or folklore if you will. This story is very old and literally goes back to when the peoples of the earth respected all beings and lived in balance. This story comes from the beginning when we humans stop living in balance with all living things and began to kill mostly animals taking far more than was needed. The animal kingdom made contracts with the people that they would allow humans to kill them for food, however this needed to be done in a sacred way, a blessed way, a right way to the animals and that the humans never took the animals lives for more than what was needed.

Though I have seen the sacred slaughter preformed and since I have only bare witness once, I have a sense that each tribe has a way of doing the sacred act and ceremony. I have attempted to find information on the internet to support the sacred slaughter so that anyone reading this might gather a better understanding but in the first nation communities most everything that has to do with ceremony is still not discussed openly, which I can agree that it is better that way. An average person could not understand the levels, depths, history, development required to fully get the totality of ceremony. The days, weeks spent in prayer before and after are challenging to the white mind that lives, breath, eats and lives fast and furiously. I am speaking of years of experience firsthand of what I have endured to understand such a small piece of it all. It for me has all been worth it but I have met many others who have felt this path was too difficult for them. I bless them in their search to find the right path, the right way for themselves.

The story is found, I am finding it in many oral traditions of why humans get sick and specifically one particular disease, dis-ease, illness and that is Rheumatism. I am posting what wiki has to say on the matter. Information for the reader.

The story talks about the contract with the people of the earth being broken by the people hunting and killing the animals, taking far more than they needed and I suspect possible selling or acquiring some kind of gain as well. The animal that was particularly upset was the Deer in most of the stories however the Bear Nation went with the deer nation as support to the Creator and Counsels to vent their grievances with the humans not holding their end in the bargain. In the end it was the Deer that set a curse basically across humanity since the humans would not listen and continued to take more than they needed while the disrespect of the animals became the norm. The disease that was set upon man by the animal nations for taking more than they needed, this disease is specifically mentioned by the Cherokee and other First Nation tribes as Rheumatism.

The animals had to create a disease to put upon the humans that would stop them, keep them from walking, hunting, shooting the animals.

I have been working in the alternative medical end for 30 years for income. Before that I healed bugs, animals and whatever else came my way. In humans the number one complaint it pain, chronic pain, pain of the physical structure whether it came by family history, nutritional fetal issues, injury/s, disease, poisoning, job related as the list goes on I think it matter not the story of how but maybe why?

About three quarters of my practice, study and treatments are for pain, chronic pain, it is 75 percent of the reasons why people inevitably come to see me.  They usually take a long walk through western medicine that offers them no remedy and has left them usually damaged, broken and pretty much destroyed. I am the last ditch effort people will try. Luckily I am good at what I do; the spirits guide me in the right directions for the people however it only works if I am in balance. Which takes a huge amount of work and effort on my part balance with the earth and all livings things is not easy. Like most there are days I would like to full check out, hide and ignore it all. Balance is a constant, minute by minute, daily check in of my inner world, which comes with being able to accept, surrender, as for help when I need it.

In the medicine/s of first nation people, the stories the humans are here to be helpers. We are the “Helpers” to this whole world, plant nations, water nation, air nation, animal nations, winged nations and each other. We are nothing more than helpers, but we have gotten so far away from helping anything or anyone. Helping ourselves to everything, taking and living in a unsustainable way seems to be the programming we are sold.

So I would like to offer a link to the past for those in chronic pain and those helping people in chronic pain. Maybe pain in the body structure “no” matter how it becomes or is acquired to be considered a symptom, a sign of taking too much? Consuming more than one need/s?

Maybe the possible cure would be to give, to start giving, helping wherever and whenever your road connected you with those in need of help? Instead of driving past or ignoring contaminated lots, homeless people, Not taking your family or friends in when they need help yet again. Maybe the soil, land around your house needs you to help it, to grow something in it? To stop applying chemicals that poison the microbial beings, birds, because we are too lazy or lack of respect to actually help the land, weeds, plants, bugs in natural helping way.

I know that is sounds simple, even ridiculous to some, but there has to be a starting place to the chronic pain and maybe that the animals were tired of being taken advantage of by us might hold some water? In the end people feel better, heal and are happier when they are giving, I have witness spontaneous healing in people who become passionate about helping in some way.

I have seen in myself having far less pain when I am giving, when I am helping openly and not with holding.

Being a helper giving more means you are open to finding the best possible place that you can do the best helping. Living sustainably means you use and need less, taking less and no matter what reason you come up with is a great place to be and with everyone helping we could turn this planet around in no time!

P.S  I am sorry about the links not working on the blogs. I have worked on the website for 2 months now and cannot figure out how to fix it! A bit of extra work I know to paste them in browser.

Grow Food, Be Free and Live for a Living!


Ministry Of Consciousness Fire Ceremony…

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Consciousness Of Economics presents..

Ministry Of Consciousness Fire Ceremony

Concow, California February 27th through March 2nd  2015

Transmutation ~ Fire & Snake Medicine ~ Dreaming ~ Earth Medicine

February 27 Join in for an evening of fire teachings and education on how to bring about change by encouraging a relationship with Grand Father Fire. Learn traditional and nontraditional practices while we work with a bon fire as a community for personal long term building of your own fire therapies. Hands on and discussion. Donation and pot luck sharing 5 pm to 10 pm.

  • February 28 Mini healing clinic by donation with pot luck lunch sharing from 11 am to 4 pm.
  • March 1 Mini healing clinic by donation from 10 am to 12 noon.
  • March 1 Private healing session choose from a Shamanic Healing or Non MD old school Osteopathic session. Call for times.
  • March 2 Private healing session choose from a Shamanic Healing or Non MD old school Osteopathic session. Call for times.

Contact: Elizabeth @ or 530.570.2871 for more information and location.

Fire Medicine: Fire can be called upon as a teacher to generate power for creation, health, and healing, spiritual pursuits. Fire purifies us by burning away the old that is no longer useful. It is a necessary medicine in the process of transmutation and transformation. Fire medicine covers vast medium/s in which our work with fire can be carried out: the sun, lightening, physical fire, heat, cosmic energies, nature’s life forces, electrical current, passion and the “spark” of creation. Sacred Fire which is also a term for fire medicine when expressed in “higher states of consciousness”. Fire is a powerful current, flame, wave, spark of energy that when actively invoked initiates an intelligent of power to overcome obstacles and fuel our vast infinite potential. This medicine teaches you on a personal level that you are a universal being.

Bridgette Lyn Dolgoff (She Walks Among Stars) has been a life time student & practitioner of Shamanism. She is the Minister of Health for the Ministry Of Consciousness & founder of the Snake Clan and current functioning Shaman. Bridgette works within a 64 dimensional grid and she specializes in her own formats, structures, practices in Shamanism utilizing Fire & Snake Medicine, and Transmutation. For over 25 years Bridgette has taught & facilitated “Energetic & Structural Medicine” for humans and animals. In 2006 Bridgette began consulting for Corporate & Political geared business with a focus on creating “ECO-nomical Cooperation’s”. Bridgette is also a sustainable Biodynamic farmer educating about our spiritual return back to Earth. She brings insights on how to work with the medicine of earth in systems of recovery and restoration for the health of our bodies, nutrition, soil, water, air, plants and animals. Offering workshops, webinars and classes, speak and lecture at events, consult, do hands of building and development, ceremonies, hands on healing in person or long distance. For more information please about services or hand crafted earth medicine for your location please contact Bridgette@ or 775.624.7862

Physical Being versus Non Physically Being….(pt 2)


I decided to take several days off after I became stoppable sick, I have been sleeping around the clock, getting rest I seriously need, getting grounded and focusing on my detoxing. I have been allowing the dreaming world to explain things to me, show me clearly what my next steps should be. I have been praying, giving tobacco prayers thanking the spirit world for the next steps. Though after 3 days of keeping to myself, resting, praying, detoxing I still feel off, I feel better but still feel off during which  several things have come to me.

The first thing that showed up was stress, the stress I tolerate and put up with from the outside world in the form of humans. I have allowed people for years to abuse me, I told myself I was taking the higher road as I know that what they are doing is not who they are but the passive aggressive limbo they are tragically in. This has been a huge mistake on my part mostly on the part of my body, there is only so much negativity  you can hear, deal with and be involved with no matter who you are. I have taken steps over the last 6 months slowly to eliminate such people, news and to be mindful, careful of the grocery store. I go very late these days after the crowds have left.  The produce we buy has water in it and that water, plants are directly affected by angry people touching it and then we come home and eat it! I really take my time now to wash the produce in water, with apple cider vinegar and I pray to the water that is in it and sitting in for the health of my being. This lesson is about being in the present moment and breaking the cycle of the passive energy and doing what I can in this moment to make everything more peaceful around me including my food!

Secondly a big discover has been love, not getting it but giving it to whatever I come in contact with that  needs it. The whole give and take thing, is another lie I am getting over and again it is part of the separate two path system. I keep hearing my inner voice saying things like: if I could just get some help I could more done, where is the help, where is the community? The truth is that I need nothing if I am unified, whole, not navigating two systems, thoughts, paths I have everything that is needed in me and so do you. I am no longer focused on balancing give and take, I function much better on being in the present moment and giving love, brushing the dog’s fur watching how much the dog loves it and the great’ful’ness it expresses when I am fully there with the dog brushing the dog. Watching the skies for the golden eagle couple that lives right by my house and upon seeing them sending waves of love. Even when I have to trap animals that are doing damage, doing it with love and the feeling of releasing them to a place that gives them exactly what they need to live more naturally in a better space, then following the signs to their right and perfect new home and releasing them. Giving Love all the time, instead of trying to force love on people or attempting to extract love from them, because of false need instilled in me. This whole spiritual give and take see saw. Giving is what we do when we are whole, it is what the creator does, did and has not asked for anything in return? The creator does not need, it just gives.

Third while I was dreaming a few days ago and I want to be clear this is not go to sleep, night time dreaming. This is what is known as the third attention kind of dreaming and traveling to other worlds, dealing with beings from these worlds in an attempt to sort out issues, bring back medicine, get healing for myself and others, ect, ect.  This is what real shamanism is about. I am lucky to have been trained coming from a traditional background in shamanism   and the people I have trained with and elevated by that process to levels easily by being in their space. So, I drove to the closest body of water and laid on the gravel beach, I started drifting was a very quiet day. I was looking at the sky closed my eyes and the other worldly sky appeared. A large human like hand moved across the sky with a concrete gray looking square. The hand placed the square in the sky and pushed on it as it snapping it in. I noticed a crack in the square and this crack began to suction a white puss like fluid from my body, energy field. When it was removed there was a short break and then the suction started again, this time removing a yellow mucus puss that was thicker and harder to pull towards the square. Then it was completed. The words from Miguel Ruiz scrolled across my inner sky: Do not eat emotional poison! I had not only been eating poison but it was reflecting as energetic puss, energy infection, virus that was affecting me now and if left un-cleared could result in severe power loss, a very sick body and early death in this life.  I returned to this world faded off, it was a great nap in the sun, in the silence.

Fourth is something that one of my amazing teachers who is a Shoshone medicine man, rain maker of the highest levels who keeps working on and with me. His biggest teaching is not putting your sorry, your sad, your happiness or any other emotion on other people, events, history, animals, land and including yourself not putting unnecessary emotions on things, events or people. Something that is not easy to do. I am not talking about being an unfeeling ass. What he is saying is that by me putting my sorry on another person for something that has happened is like a curse. That once a course of thought, feeling becomes an action the person or event cannot shake it. Putting your sorry on someone is also a waste of energy and will come back on you as an event in your life that will make you sorry for yourself. What comes around goes around. Do not think that happiness is different than sorry projected it is not, it is still a projection onto whatever it is or whoever it is. Better to just have non attachment and allow the person or situation to work out for the highest and greatest good, knowing that spirit is doing its job. While we do not project a added mess, adding more confusion and mostly harm. Do no harm or it comes back. Keeping my emotions to myself has been something that has been out of control in my life for a long time. It started when I was about 10, I saw starving children on tv. Broke my little heart and since then I have spent a great deal of time trying to feed people, end their suffering if even for a moment. The key here is not in the feeding of people, helping people, it is in me and how I view it and the emotions I am projecting on them. I have projected my sorry, sad and my own personal guilt for not having more to give in the past. They may have fared better if I had not made the sorry, given them sorry food, sad food, guilty food and left them alone and allowed their great spirit to guide them without the added mess. We like to separate that happy is better than sad, when projecting it possibly may not be, sometimes happiness are not where people are at, it is better to know that everything no matter how it looks is right and perfect, when I give food now, I give it with nothing attached. A link to the teacher I was discussing:

Fifth has to do with that sometimes our cells are not ready for change; they have been stuck and can block us from moving forward, freely, passing our own boundaries. In some cases people that pass these boundaries, go for the gold of all they can be also have psychological breaks, major health crisis and even death. I feel that having to hide my family lines, who I am, what I can do in the fear of being killed, destroyed, murdered has created blocks in which my cells are trying to keep me in the box, keep me safe from the harm by creating strange sicknesses.  As the my mind changes, as my emotions change and as my cells change, let go moving forward in my work in the public will create much less sickness /separation for me in the future. I was trying to find a story Bruce Lipton tells about a remarkable boy, he plays piano and a concert where he let it all go his brilliance playing his heart out to the highest and greatest, however he believed he did not believe that he was good and by bypassing the system of our own design after he was done playing he had a long term mental break. Sometimes sickness is a way of our bodies protecting us from our best, greatest because our stories from the start have been about us being much less than we are. Programming runs deep. I could not find the story, but will leave you with this:

And I imagine you might be glad that I have reached the last part and it has to do with my gallbladder which informed me the others day that it was part of the cause of the dizziness I was undergoing. I took this as a signal that it was now playing a separate program from “the body”. The emotional sourness, bitterness of an entire lifetime had created enough damage that the gallbladder was not operating as a part of the unified body system and was under collapse.  I spent some time looking into what the positive emotional response is for the gallbladder is, my training only categorized the organs of the body by the negative traits. Laughter was the positive trait and tears are the healing tool. Though my focus is trying to get away from one way or another I have been crying heavily since December 2010 after I did ceremonial DMT. Since that time a whole lot of stuff has been coming up and moving out of my energy body, mostly my emotional body. Bringing my emotional body much closer to my physical that is ever has been.  I joke about it having been around china most of my life! I was more than depressed for 6 months after the DMT experience. What I saw and learned shook me in the best way, in the best possible way in the long term and one day something I am going to write about.

The male side where my gallbladder lives is causing stress on my heart on the female side. Maybe like a very unhappy man taking his bitterness out on his wife, he has held it in for a long time and now it appears to be boiling over. My female left side heart has been passively taking the boil over. The brain that unifies them, bridges them is also under attack. War between the sex’s the internal game of passive aggressive is being played out in my body.

What is the common ground between being and doing? And what is the common ground of physical and non physical? What is the place where unity exists? As I unravel and the spirit world reveals the information to me step by step, as I ask deeper questions, desiring deeper truths, I can only do what is offered until the complete healing through unification of the physical and non take place within me thus effecting out of me and in the long run healing these issues in me will heal them in our Earth Mother and eventually all beings. Getting both feet on the same path in the same direction, out of the polarity and duality into the omnipresent being.

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Physical Being versus Non Physically Being….(pt 1)


Today I woke up still feeling terribly off. Like most of us on planet earth stress has reached a critical mass for me. I began to get heavy dizzy spells it seemed for no reason and with them came a circle, zig zag lined with rainbow prisms in the view of my life eye.

My entire life I have lived in the realm of what I call the DODIE DODIE which means the realties and worlds that exist along side of the one that we think it real and make all the difference in how we react and respond to this world that is basically fake, made up and in this world we can die or some other fear based reality can destroy us. The bottom line is that what we really are and where we came from can never be destroyed nor die, only the body, however there are many conscious beings who have used their bodies to cross time, space through cracks in the same body for 2000 physical years. There are books if you look for them where their stories are told. I have spent years with master and gurus, shamans, medicine people who also have told me stories about such people. I believe that during the course of the life that I have met a few of them who came to help me. I am noting this because we may even be able to change our minds in such a way that we are no longer bound to earth or to this reality we are living? Including our body? Something to think about for sure it would change everything about our painful, sad experiences on this level and it would change health care as it would no longer be needed.

Over the last 25 years of my life crazy experience/s beyond my control (like the deaths of 15 family members from 98 to 03) which I am calling fire/s here. I have had one fire after another; I have had to put these fires out single handedly. Sometimes there have been 5 major forest fires at once in my life and I am the only one battling them in an effort to put them out. I laugh and often tell people I have lived the life of a 90 year old person in a short 46 years! All of the events / fires have been life experiences that have lead me to where I am now. The final crossroad or let’s call it a split. Instead of looking ahead as two path ways of choice maybe what it really is, possibly is, me with one foot on each side. That the further the gap in the roads the harder my life becomes, the more my body suffers, the further the stretch between my feet, which is like snapping me in half at the hips at some point. Maybe the work is to unify, not choose the red pill or the blue, but to bring both side fully together? maybe? I think for me that is exactly what is happening and I am failing because of my belief that I should just choose another road which keeps me separated on all levels, stretched out, and pulled apart instead of unified. For me this keeps the battle alive, keeps me fighting: on the internal and external, the female and male, the left hemisphere and the right hemisphere, the human and the God, the esoteric and the logical, the all or the nothing.

I have learned that you have to believe for it to be real. The things were are hooked are yet con jobs and  all look so real to keep your attention trapped and looping around into the same exact events over and over, the names may have been changed, costumes may be different but if you look deeply it is the same thing holding our attention keeping us stuck and the battle continues over and over until all the life, our batteries are run down and the physical body is destroyed in the greater scheme to cause the separation to forge a concept that this system we are living in is real and everything else is not, again another separation.

The physical symptoms that I have been having as of late stem from many issues: lack of rest, lack down time, lack of play time, my current juicing detox which is affecting my liver and gallbladder big time, people screaming at me, threatening me, sending me hate mail, pressures to make income to eat, my spiritual work has increased over the last 2 months and there is much more I could list but I want to focus on what I am noticing.

Over these last 2 weeks I have become aware at how fragile I am in the face of anger, rage, hate that comes from people. I see the passive / aggressive typical American broadcast more clearly. The passive being imbedded into the female, left side of the body and right brain and the aggressive right side, male and left brain. We have never really been taught balance, unity. We become passive, internalized and then we get filled with a need for rest, contemplation, healing, peace and the pressure from the outside world so much male being expressed onto us when this energy gets too much for us  we explode pushing back against that which will not let us be. No wonder heart issues are at the top of list in hospitals? Blood pressure is up and down destroying the oxygen levels in our brain which is causing early dementia, and then we return to the passive female energy as we are checking out on epic levels caused by disease. If we can only get sick enough maybe the world will let us be? Maybe I will have an excuse to be passive? Not have to deal with my life? (Because) I have no idea how to unify myself, to use the aggressive energy, male energy to instigate real change by implementing what is created, birthed out by the female instead of rage, war, drama, conflict and anger?  Or how to use the female energy for contemplation, connection to the infinite highways of information, pulling it in to us and creating an embryo of creation within, gestating and birthing it into reality? Into my reality. I get that there are chemtrails that are causing a huge amount of sickness, mental illness, physically illness but maybe at the bottom or at the heart of what is going on in our world could it be easier to check out? Being stuck in the passive aggressive limbo? Maybe it is easier to be sick then have a change of heart? Change of ideas? Obviously you need your heart to be in the right place, fully working properly to fuel the brain with the oxygen it needs to think, create and for the spark of potential and the possibility of real  change. So Change of heart may be needed on the spiritual level, astral level, ether level, dreaming level in order to stop the decay of the health of the heart and the shutting down of our brain. Pray that you have a change of heart in a good way. Pray for others to have a change of heart in a good way. Pray that this change of heart leads you to an infinite, creating, unified being in a good way. That is what I pray for daily.

Going back to the dizzy spells I have been having and the numerous possibilities that could be creating it. I recently found out that my blood pressure is way beyond what it should be and I have always had the lowest blood pressure no matter what was going on around me. I was told that the new viruses and flues are now creating long term heart disease issues including heart murmurs by a doctor I went to. Terrified me since I have one of these these viruses that has lasted 2 months. Since I am conflicted about western medicine, my whole life I have been alternative, I come from an alternative family and my work for 30 years is in the alternative markets or really traditional medicine is more correct statement. I healed my brain tumor alternatively. What I know is that for me anything in the system kills. It steals our power slowly till there is nothing left of us. Then we die and are forced into the “heaven” scenario which by the way is a lie, it is a computer generated hologram suited to express what you need to hear to get you to reincarnate back into this system until your soul energy, frequency is gone. The light that people see is no different than the light that the ET’s use to trap people and bring them aboard their ships for medical testing. A tractor beam of sorts. I know this sound crazy but it is the truth. The whole life and death experience is generated to steal your life force from the body and the soul/spirit. For me in order to sort out what is wrong with my body I have to allow all the details to emerge. Then I will know what the next step/s are and I can carrying them out with love.

This process that I have been undergoing for the last 2 years is one where I think I can finally write the truth about such ideas. I have not been able to put what I know into words and I understand also that my symptoms are directly related to allowing myself to write what I know to be true and my experiences. My heart is in conflict of staying under the radar, not expressing some of the deepest things I know, have witnessed, experienced through my life, not that I am afraid, but sometimes these things are so deeply hidden to keep me normal, that uncovering them, writing about them can seem like a sin of sorts. I am hoping that the days of hiding such information from those around me is over and as I am sorting out these health issues that the separation of who I am really and what I know will unify the person I have pretended to be to get along, not show too much power, keep the power backed up as not to overwhelm others, conceal, hide and live with one foot on each path bobbling back and forth with steps that are so slow going forward.

Please see pt 2 for the rest of the story.

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A Basic Shamanism Course / Classes for 2015…


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 What is Shamanism?

Shamanism encompasses the premise that shamans are intermediaries or messengers between the human     world and the spirit worlds. Shamans are said to treat ailments/illness by mending the soul. Alleviating traumas affecting the soul/spirit restores the physical body of the individual to balance and wholeness. The shaman also enters supernatural realms or dimensions to obtain solutions to problems afflicting our reality.  Shamans may visit other worlds/dimensions to bring guidance to misguided souls and to ameliorate illnesses of the human soul caused by foreign elements. The shaman operates primarily within the spiritual world, which in turn affects the human world. The restoration of balance results in the elimination of the ailment.

Teacher is Bridgette Lyn Dolgoff (she walks among stars) is the Minister of the Ministry Of Consciousness & Shaman for the Snake Clan. Bridgette works in 64 dimensions and specializes in her own formats, structures, practices in Shamanism utilizing Fire & Snake Medicine and Transmutation. Her Shamanism work also involves energy grid adjustments, altars, medicine bundles, coaching, screening, event looping, generating power, recapitulation, prayer, spiritual commitment ceremonies, plugging & unplugging covering people, animals, homes and offices.. Bridgette is also a sustainable Biodynamic farmer educating about our spiritual return back to Earth. She brings insights on how to work with the medicine of earth in systems of recovery and restoration for the health of our bodies, soil, water, air, plants life and animals.  She does private sessions by appointment.

All classes are basic teachings of Shamanism usages, the practices can cross into physically, astral, ether, dimensional and the worlds influenced by spirits and beings once mastered.

January 7 ~ 5:30 pm to 7 pm ~ One hour of class time by webinar and half hour for Q&A topic will be on Shamanism past, present, future and Bridgette’s body of work and experiences that she will be teaching from. Practice will discuss the application of plugging yourself in.

January 14 ~ 5:30 pm to 7 pm ~ One hour of class time by webinar and half hour for Q&A topic will be on prayer, intention and the practice will be on the 7 directions.

January 21 ~ 5:30 pm to 7 pm ~ One hour of class time by webinar and half hour for Q&A topic will be on Alters. This will cover alters made for personal or group use, four direction concepts, outdoor, indoor, drawn, stones, blankets, symbols and ideas for items that can be added. Practice will be on making your own.

January 28 ~ 5:30 pm to 7 pm ~ One hour of class time by webinar and half hour for Q&A topic will be on Looping or event Looping. Practice will be on catching your own event Looping.

There will be two weeks off

February 18 ~ 5:30 pm to 7 pm ~ One hour of class time by webinar and half hour for Q&A topic will be on Medicine collecting and Medicine making. Practice will be on both.

February 25 ~ 5:30 pm to 7 pm ~ One hour of class time by webinar and half hour for Q&A topic will be on medicine pray ties, medicine bundles and medicine flags. Practice will be on making your own.

March 4 ~ 5:30 pm to 7 pm ~ One hour of class time by webinar and half hour for Q&A topic will be on Recapitulating what is it and why it is necessary part of Shamanism. Bridgette will teach her own developed method. Practice will be to recapitulate something stealing energy from your past.

March 11 ~ 5:30 pm to 7 pm ~ One hour of class time by webinar and half hour for Q&A topic will be on being present and creating sacred space for Shamanism work. Practice will be to be present and create your own sacred space by inner instruction.

There will be two weeks off

April 1 ~ 5:30 pm to 7 pm ~ One hour of class time by webinar and half hour for Q&A topic will be on Screening. Practice will be on using the screening.

April 8 ~ 5:30 pm to 7 pm ~ One hour of class time by webinar and half hour for Q&A topic will be on Generating Power (part one). Practice will be a modified version of Run to the Sun.

April 15 ~ 5:30 pm to 7 pm ~ One hour of class time by webinar and half hour for Q&A topic will be on Generating Power (part two) what you can utilize to generate power in your physical world and cosmically. Practice will be to come up with ways to generate power in your own life.

April 22 ~ 5:30 pm to 7 pm ~ One hour of class time by webinar and half hour for Q&A topic will be on Dreaming. Will discuss why we want to bridge the day, awake dream with the night, sleeping dream to eventually unify them into one reality whether we are “awake state or sleep state”. Practice will be on holding a picture and projecting it into the night dreaming state.

Participants will receive the webinar information several days before the class.

Costs of Classes are as follows: for one selected class is $20, for each four week section of classes $60 and for all twelve classes $150.

Classes can be paid by email through pay pal invoice. Contact the Ministry by email with your email and let us know which package you are interested in.

Private Shamanism sessions are by appointment only and appointments are held on skype by video call. These sessions cover Spirit Coaching/ Readings, Shamanism Healings and deeper development of the basic Shamanism work provided in the classes. For the participants that pay for and attend all twelve classes you will be able to schedule one discounted private appointment for each four week session. For a total of three discounted private appointments taking place on skype video call. These discounted appointments must be used before April 29, 2015.  Each appointment is about an hour and will cost $60 per with discount. New rates for private appointments will be $100 starting in 2015.

For more information please contact the Ministry Of Consciousness ~ 775.624.7862 ~ ~

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Water Wheel Ceremony Northern Nevada December 7th 2014…

What is a Water Wheel? How Does it Work?

  A Water Wheel is the sacred geometry design you see above. It is based on a Native        American medicine wheel. Its purpose is to energize, celebrate, and honor water. It is also  a place to deepen our relationship with the spirit of water.

  A Water Wheel can be a personal altar in your home (Water Wheel Kit), or the design can  be laid on the earth like a medicine wheel using corn meal, flowers, or stones. Seven clear  quartz crystals activate six points around the circle and the center and transmit healing  energy to and from the wheel.

  Water Wheels are activated by our thoughts, intentions, and clear quartz crystals to create an energy field, or vortex of consciousness, for energizing water. Water Wheels get our thoughts of love, gratitude, and appreciation, which have been scientifically proven to transform the very structure of water, flowing to water. The more love and energy the Water Wheel receives from us, the more energy goes out to help our source waters… from which all living things are fed.

Bridgette Lyn Dolgoff under the Ministry Of Consciousness will be creating a Water Wheel Ceremony for all those that wish to attend to support and heal Our Water in Northern Nevada. This ceremony will also be assisting, connecting and aligning with and international Water Wheel Ceremonies that are taking place on December 6th. Bridgette will be doing prayer work at Pyramid Lake to support Marshall on December 6th at the reactivation of a Water Wheel in Texas that is connected to other international Water Wheels. She intends to start prayer work and preparation arriving at the lake on the 6th and staying overnight completing the Water wheel on Sunday.

We are asking for a $25 donation for the Ministry and if you feel guided to leave a separate donation for Marshall please let me know and I will get it to him or feel free to donate on his sites above. You can support this wheel even if you are not coming in person and helping Bridgette carry out all of the earth healing work she is doing by donation at 

Items to bring for ceremony/group: white and yellow corn flour/meal, flowers, crystals clear or rose quartz stones for the alter and to share (need 2 large rose quartz stones for the middle and we need smaller quartz and rose quartz for the 6 nations/directions on the outer part of the wheel that will be covered and left at the site), pipe and loose leaf tobacco, sage loose or sticks and sweet grass. 

Items to bring for ceremony/personally: If you are encouraged to Camp out with Bridgette please bring the proper gear as it may be very cold, dress for the weather, bring a small jar in which to receive healing water after the ceremony for your own needs, pack yourself a lunch and fresh water, you can bring items to be blessed on the alter that you may take home with you after, please bring a clear quartz or rose quartz crystal for a personal Water pray flag (size of a quarter all the way around or smaller), please remember to pay the fees required of the people of the Lake which means if you are camping pay for the overnight camping and day fee for Sunday December 6th or we will be trespassing and we wish that all the medicine that goes into this Water Wheel is good, right and with respect of all involved.

Bridgette Lyn Dolgoff (she walks among stars) is the Minister of the Ministry Of Consciousness & Shaman for the Snake Clan. Bridgette works in 64 dimensions and specializes in her own formats, structures, practices in Shamanism utilizing Fire & Snake Medicine and Transmutation. Her Shamanism work also involves energy grid adjustments, altars, medicine bundles, coaching, screening, event looping, generating power, recapitulation, prayer, spiritual commitment ceremonies, plugging & unplugging sessions. Bridgette is also a sustainable Biodynamic farmer educating about our spiritual return back to Earth. She brings insights on how to work with the medicine of earth in systems of recovery and restoration for the health of our bodies, soil, water, air, plants life and animals.

This is a participatory event.

Grow Food, Be free & Live for a Living!


My Last (bad) Abduction…


I have been in a hit or miss with my writing. Returning from a 3 months on the road which I am calling a long vision quest I am clearer and hopefully more open to reach in and pull out information to write about. In the past I would sit down to write then an aspect of me would shut off and shut down in an act of protection:  “what should not be told or shared ever”! I would face a catatonic state for several days then attempt to try again. Then for a long time I just stayed with writing about reality which includes nutrition, farming and some very basic shamanism experiences that I could easily write about. I want that is my goal is to write about it all and everything in between.

For a very long time my internal life has been like a home of a hoarder. My experiences, knowledge and information was held hostage in the depths of the rooms, covered by layers of garbage that kept the jewels hidden. Through the last 3 months I have purged much of the debris away and the fear, shame, and insecurity about myself, my journey and my life’s work. I am going to attempt to start writing about such things that do not fit the main stream systems that have happened to me. You as the reader may taken them or leave them, if by chance they awaken something inside of you and give courage to keep going fully aware and awake.

There were so many deep seated issues that came to head, long term fear systems from the experience in which I am going to be discussing here today. I think so many of us face this and it creates a “why try” attitude because nothing you do, throw at, change…………seems to work against abduction by forces that are not from this planet. It leaves a residue all over waking life, daily life situations and leaves us overwhelming with an underground, under our skin fear, constant fear and personal insecurity and huge confusion about how to live daily life.

This is what I found when I finally came to blows with my last abduction by the ET’s I call the grays. That it had contaminated any ability to be free, powerful and happy. That somewhere sometime “they” were going to take me, harm me, kill me, scare the poop out of me and there was nothing I could do about it.  I could never seem to put my finger on it of what my issues really were because of the imbedded nature of the conflict of abduction in my emotional body from the first days of my life on earth when it all began. It meant that I could never trust anyone bottom line, that I was on my own. No one can save you from abduction and everyone lies about it. Our whole systems lie about this very significant issue about abduction and ET’s. We end up damaging ourselves, breaking ourselves to form ourselves into a reality that there are NO ET”S experimenting on us or other people. If your system lies about this one thing, can you stop and imagine that they are lying about everything? Which make our lives, our experiences completely and totally invalid in the world we live and we are seen as crazy, drugged by main stream and most of us sub come to suicide in attempt to finally be free from the abusive, forced medical experiments in which we have by bad ET’s for most of our lives over and over.

When I was young I had experiences with many ET”S. Some were very good and some very bad. The good ones taught me about the nature of reality, our true abilities and flew me to other worlds. The last time the “good” ET’s visited me was when I was 23. I was living in a small one room dwelling with a loft. The loft was just big enough to put a camping mat on with bedding, size of a kids single bed in width and about 15 feet long. The loft was only for sleeping, no room for anything else. At the bottom of this loft area, at the foot was a window that opened by pulling it from the top towards you. It was a medium size window. I remember opening the window that night, it was a warm summer’s night and it was a very quiet night.

I fell into a deep sleep. I was awakened laying face down flat with my arms out stretched looking at a landscape we were flying over. The bottom of this craft was like glass, see through. I could not stand up against the forces so I just laid there looking down over this world a red  planet we were flying over. I kept saying: this is not earth; this is not earth over and over. I was with the good ET’s and I was so excited! The good ET”s have a love for us, our expansion of consciousness, mind you, it reflects on their consciousness as well. They are our family members which may be hard to swallow for some. When first nation people talk about the ancestors from the sky they are talking about their families of origin which are the Star Nations or what we call ET’s.

When the trip was over they gently put back on my loft bed.  I was sitting up and the window at my feett was a big screen of light with no edges slowly it collapsed back into the window at my feet. I felt safe and alive, I rolled over and went back to sleep. This was my last visit from my family of origin. If I had only known it was the last time I would have great’ly thanked them for what they have done for me, but we do not know when the end comes and makes it vital we live presently in the now fully living each experience.

I have spent most of my life working on remedies to prevent the “bad” ET abductions. Immersed myself in every culture, religion and spiritual path to halt and stop it. I always return back to my path with shamanism and it is through a rigorous shamanic path that I after years had finally stopped the nightly assaults on me. The types of shamanism practices that I have used and developed will not be in the discussion here. However in the future I hope to write about such things. One particular practice that has taken me years to harness is what the topic of “The Art of Dreaming” goes into. Used in conjunction with several generating power techniques helped me reach the level  needed to not be “hypnotize” by another any longer even the “bad ET”S”. I currently teach generating power workshops as well as consult with people or life couching in the arts, work and practice of shamanism. I do groups and private sessions, in person and by Skype video call by appointments. I do charge and can adjust it accordingly. These days it is how I make my living.

I am working on getting a tele-seminar of workshops going but I have been really forced into clearing my own slate this year 2014. I was asked by spirit to start doing road trips to teach and bring my work to places that it is needed. In the process I found myself on road trip personal vision quests clearing huge amount of blocks in myself, reclaiming energy and getting my ducks together in a row as I evolve into what spirit had in mind for me.

I want you to know that there are” good” ET”s which are our families members from before we came here and “bad” that do I feel mean harm, in some cases great harm.  As I journey down the road of life everything that I participate in is always about freedom to choose, freewill of some sort and for me the events that I have suffered through with the bad ET’s have left me NO know options or choices against their agendas and what seems to be a scientific study. I thoroughly believe in like attracts like and we do this same kind of process to animals against their wills for science. Maybe it is a matter of that we get what we give? Could it be as simple of stopping the experimenting on animals, then the experimenting on us will stop? I have considered many lines of thought in regards to my experiences with the bad ET”S and all I know is that for me as a person, a spirit out of freewill and my freedom to choose. I do not want to participate with being abducted without being asked while I am in an awaken state. I know that my answer would be something along the lines of “fuk you” and I am unwilling to be involved with it on any level, I wish you a nice day.

Who in their right mind would become a scientific experiment? No one that is why in our history the nazi scientist did the same kinds of tests and experiments that the ET”S do on us to the Jewish people who were in prison and could not opt out. There are times I do believe that maybe the stories about this being a prison planet are true, but at some point you awaken through a process of spiritual work in my case shamanism, the varieties that extend back 10,000 years or more and you begin to learn how to control your experience and fully opt out even if it comes to violence. That leads us into the last abduction I had, where my work in the night dreaming world and generating of power finally paid off!

Around the middle of December in 2013, I was in the condo alone; my roommate was out of town for a long duration. It had been a very long time since the last time I was abducted and I had felt this way due to the shamanic work I was doing. I went to bed early that night.

I woke up, I felt myself being pulled off my bed on top the floor. I was then being dragged down the hall hovering in the air in my comforter. Though this situation happened rapidly a matter of seconds I was fully aware in my dreaming body. The fear was minimum and I was able to act, think and react without much effort. My comforter was wrapped around me like a doobie. I was rolled up in it. The comforter was twisted on the bottom and the top so much so that when I woke up I could barely move. I looked up and above me there was a very small crack or opening in the comforter in which I could see out. I only had a very small window before I was down the hall and heading out the door into the craft.  Immediately I could see the lower leg, ankle and foot of the being pulling me along. The leg was a leg I had seen many times before; I knew exactly who that leg belonged to and that was a gray ET. What crossed my mind at that point was that once this being got me out the sliding door and on board that UFO things would not be in my favor. Anger welled up in me, I pulled all the energy I had, all the damage, past abductions, fear, resentment and I reached my arm up. I shoved my right hand through the crack I grabbed onto the leg and used all my will and power to send an unforgettable message to the ET. The message was that I was done participating on any level to abductions that I was angry and I was going to show this particular ET a lesson. I had felt that during the course of my life the message/s I constantly sent these beings were to leave me alone, I had been clear over and over again. This time I was ready to battle, it was war, game on. I held on to its leg and began to harness all my power, I began to use my hand and fingers to deeply fracture its structure. I could feel my fingers sinking into the tissues and into the bone. I was not going into the UFO just was not going to happen this time or ever again. I sent a telepathic message as I was breaking its leg that I was done and that this was a sign to them, to it that I would not longer be controlled and they could expect a serious fight from here on out and that I had beat the hypnosis.

Then wham bam I am in my bed sitting up,  I was released. In the past I could never have fought back, the mind control, hypnosis used is not an easy thing to break. The fear that over takes you as part of the result of the abduction is a state of shock to your mind and body. When they get you into a group setting under the eye of many of them it impossible to do anything against them or run even if you do awaken during the experiments happening to you. It is a worse process to be awaken for any duration of the testing/s, injection/s, surgery/s something that will haunt you forever.

I got up went into the bath room and vomited. I continue to be violently ill it lasted about 5 days. This was a deep clearing from years of swallowing back what had happened to me. It was all the suffering, fear, anger, rage, hopelessness, helplessness that had plagued me all my life over these experiences. After the clearing I felt different, I felt in control of my life, the fear of authority, the fear of domination, the fear of being put upon, forced against my will was gone. I had no idea how deeply this reflected in all aspects of my waking life at the time. However the deeply held lack of security and my deep insecurity that kept me from really living, really being all I could be and thriving began to unravel in layers on mental, emotional, physical and spiritual levels. Tremendous fear, panic continues to come up and release even now!

I have no had another visit from the bad ET”s since and again I am always contemplating about, reflecting on many concepts about this event. It has crossed my mind that maybe their job was to teach me about my will, leading me deeper into shamanism to learn to be fully awake, fully conscious at all times through their trespasses, one can never know sometimes what the truth maybe?

As I finish the process of editing this for posting I am sick to my stomach, the feeling of foreboding washes over me in waves as if there is some underlining nausea of suffering connected to the telling such things. That if I should start to dig in myself and write about truths I have known that there is somehow a punishment coming. I have to be free and for me that means wading into the sea of insanity and finding a voice to speak about it no matter what may come or be.

Around the end of August 2014 on the 3rd day of a trip I was taking which lasted for close to 3 months the good ET’s pulled me out of my body while I was driving into another dimension. What they telepathically explained to me healed me to the depths. I was so relieved to see them, so much love. Stay tune all that is coming in a future writing!

May you find the strength to fight for yourself, fight for your freedom, fight for the ability to control your own reality, fight for your own mind and may this lead to the ultimate freedom of all.

Grow Food, Be Free & Live for a Living!


Any Witness will do…


One of the most powerful practices we can do is one called “Witnessing”.

I have studied with many amazing, brilliant spiritual masters from all walks of life on this planet and vast worlds that exist past the view of this reality in which we are living, breathing and participating in. All gurus, masters, even organized religions have in some version a witnessing practice.

I believe the good part of psychology is witnessing and possibly the only good part. I apologize if this offends anyone reading this, but it has been my personal experience which lasted over 10 years.

~Please note that on this blog I write about ideas, thoughts, experiences, theories that come from within me and my being. My writings are never meant to offend anyone or thing. Please do not take anything I write or may say personally. I am expressing my views of my realities that I experience myself in and sometimes I choose to sharing on this blog.

Let’s get to the “Meat” shall we?

The following are obviously my guidelines for finding a person to do your “witnessing” and being a “witness” yourself. There are times when the mood, the venting or recapitulation has to happen now, right this minute and you must turn someone within your personal physical range into the witness for you.  I have done this very thing before and I usually just ask the person if they can witness some information for me, do not fix me, just hear me out and let me run my process and then be on my way. I find people are usually willing to just be there for you regardless of what they know. Later you can find someone to run that latter part of the process for you or you can sit with yourself and do it for yourself, as an observer. The story and feelings should not be an issue once they are let out, you are more than likely to watch it as a different being’ness as the history and energy are no longer a story of suffering for you.

Being a “Witness” for someone else…

Best way to start is to stand on both of your feet evenly, center yourself, clear your mind and breathe deeply in and out. This should only take you a few minutes, remember the person needing the witnessing is in the moment of needing to expedite the inner information now.

Stand face to face with the person you are witnessing for, looking into their left eye the entire time and make sure to breathe. If you are breathing deeply the person venting will start breathing which lends to letting go of the emotional back flow faster. When we witness we never offer our opinions, suggestions, try to heal, we simply breathe while holding space this assists from a quiet, loving, non attached place while the other person is communicating their experience. We do not attach onto their story, it has nothing to do with us, the ego wants you to do something about their story do yourself a favor and just hold space. You do not want to get involved emotionally with their sh*t, sh*t can splash and I am sure you do not want someone elses sh*t on you!

When you feel that the person you are witnessing for is done venting take in several deep breaths remain quiet. Then when you feel the timing is right ask the person if they are done sharing. “Are you done sharing with me? Is there anything else you need me to witness for you at this time? When all the witnessing is done you can move into the closure section of that space and time having helped the person you witnessed for recapitulate that emotional story that was stealing their energy and power.

When we being the closure or ending there are two roads we can travel down.  However before we can do our closure part we have to ask the person in front of us if they want to be touched or not touched? Once we know how our experience’er needs closure then we can proceed with our part. Remember we do not give feedback or suggestions, this is not a time to talk and your job is to strictly hold space during the recapitulation or venting. The ending we give and apply power (energy) to this person so they may recover and move past this story for good.

When the person does not want to be touched continue to stand in front of them and encourage them to breathe deeply, you are still connecting to them by staring at the left eye which is the infinite part of their being. Place your hands up in front of your own body, palms of hands facing the person you are assisting. Breathe power, light in through the top of your head and out through your hands at the person filling their energy body. Your mind should stay focused, do not let it stray from the task at hand, you can think things like, “I am bringing forth the light of the universe into my body, out my hands and freely giving it without condition to (State their name) that they may accept this gift of change”. Finish breathing this light into the energy space of the person in front of you then bring your hands together and simply say Thank You.

That is one ending. Here is the next possibility:

When the person does want to be touched, you may gentle reach out for their hands. When this connection, current is made it creates an infinitely energy pattern and current. Like the one at the top of this blog.

The person witnessing right hand is open and palm up, their person venting brings their left hand down onto the open right hand. Repeat on the other side, until both hands are connected. You are still connecting to them by staring at the left eye which is the infinite part of their being.

Breathe power, light in through the top of your head and out through your hands into the persons hands you are holding. Your mind should stay focused do not let it stray from the task at hand. If you need to focus mentally you might try repeating to yourself something like this: “I am bringing forth the light of the universe, from the infinite into my body and coursing it this reality through my hands as I give it freely without condition to (state their name). May you accept this gift!” You can repeat it out loud if you wish; you may all together come up with a likely and equally brilliant proclamation of your own to suit your own work.

Finish breathing this light into the energy circuit you have help to create then gently let go. Finally breathe back into your personal energy space fully disconnected. Bring your hands together and simply say Thank You.

When you need a “Witness”…

Most of the time there is notice when you need to vent, recapitulate and it can be as simple as “you must turn” someone within your personal physical range into the witness for you.  I have done this very thing before and I usually just ask the person if they can witness some information for me, do not fix me, just hear me out and let me run my process and then be on my way. I find people are usually willing to just be there for you regardless of what they know. Later you can find someone to run that latter part of the process for you or you can sit with yourself and do it for yourself, as an observer. The story and feelings should not be an issue once they are let out; you are more than likely to watch it as a different being’ness as the history and energy are no longer a story of suffering for you.

You can share this information with a friend, someone you trust, possibly several people and you can work together going back forth when the need strikes, the energy surfaces is the most important moment to get it out. It is when it has the strongest force of your story of suffering. All of our stories are about our suffering in some way, the resentment, helplessness, hopelessness, anger are just the power behind them keeping justifications of our stories alive. If this reality is a hologram? Then at some point we have to come to the understanding that our stories are lies we believe about a fictional character I call myself, me and usually by a name. When you let the energy out in a witnessing process it takes the life, batteries out of a story about us and can free us, eventually to our own infinite state.

This information I give to you freely, may you give it to others freely without condition.

Grow Food, Be Free & Live for a Living!