Failure or Time to Let GO…

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Failure or Time to Let GO…
The last couple of months I have been tossing around feelings and mental processes in regards to what I seem to deem as failure/s on the road called My life. In this day many people spouting new age beliefs about there is no such thing as failure? Then why is it a deeply programmed system within us? Why does failure appear constantly in the back grounds of our minds playing out causing giant waves of guilt flowing over about everything we say, eat, do or even think?

On this road called my life I walk “The Path”, The Red Road which I have learned from teachers of the First Nations People’s of many tribes. The road unlike new age is not meant to make you feel good, it is meant to bring you into relationship with all that exists and the long term is to bring you into complete and total balance, to the center of your personal medicine or wheel. Unlike a see saw a wheel pivoting on the center can become extremely off balanced with a wrong step, even small.

Take a round disked object and place it in the tip of your little finger in the very middle section make sure the disk does not have a hole. The Cherokee tell us that our wheel is suspended in the universe from the four direction edges that anything can break the string attached to each direction. You can see that your place on the wheel in the middle takes awareness, stability, attention because in one minute the whole wheel can fall from its balanced place. When the wheel leans to one direction because we lose our ability to be in balance because we have “checked” out in some manner something has stolen and is holding our attention or energy away from the balanced place in the center of our wheel which was holding everything in relationship to us in balance. This cheese if you will, will slide of the cracker. You will then have to work very hard to get that piece of cheese not only back onto that cracker but you will have to do it with will / attention because you cannot step off to gather the experiences or cheese to put it back on, mostly you will not have the awareness or attention by practice needed to complete such a feat.

So now we have another issue that comes into play called: holding on. Holding on is not the same as balance or center. Holding on is a reaction to the world we live in when what we do, are taught does not exactly work in our big picture of keeping what we want. It happened by our attention being grabbed away from our self, our balance, our center and yes we allowed it by not having constant awareness. We may feel we have been caught off guard this is a figment of our illusion of blame. We choose for whatever reason to be pulled off or allow ourselves to be pulled off by what we may also be called drama. When we take a bold step towards what has grabbed our attention, the wheel leans and the experiences, resources, relationships scoot to the edge when we see this we stop where we are so that they do not fall off, that we do not loose them and we begin an old pattern of holding on to. We stay that way sometimes for an entire life, never either allowing things to fall off into the abyss or to take a step back into balance. Holding on is a reaction to loosing what we have, however it is our blame since we were the ones that created our person wheel to become so far out of balance as to allow things to slide off. In a balanced place on the center of our person wheel there is not loose or gain and there is plenty of room for everything along the circle of our wheel. Where our bundles of experiences, relationships, resources are placed by spirit during our life and when it becomes full then we pass gracefully on to live again with a new wheel to fill up. Holding on is a reaction to loosing something or someone.
If our ability cannot retain it, hold on to it then we move into failure pattern. If we did not want it then we can in some cases let go and if we choose to do nothing we hold on never doing anything else but that until we croak. Never moving forward, backwards or allowing new experiences. Having full possibilities and potential comes from being at the center of your personal wheel in balance with all your relations, your relationships to everything here in this world. In the biggest part of this relationship can, will include your relationship even to the grass you mow in your yard, you know the one we put toxic chemicals on every year which is a step out of balance with that grass, a step out of balance with the earth and a step out of balance in our families and pets health. We are out of balance all the time day in and out have zero awareness because we have NOT the ability to hold the attention necessary to be in balance at the center of our wheel which makes us an observer in balance with all relations. Even the grass pays when our wheel tips. When we want more and try to find ways to manipulate this world, control this world, to force this world for say more money causes a huge out of balance with all the relations. Something will have to be offered to create a new balance on the wheel from the force of say the money to be brought on the wheel in an unnatural way. Something will have to suffer in the re-balancing, there is always a trade. Maybe the health of your child slides off the wheel because to tipped it in the direction of more money. Eventually your child dies because of that weight and pull that drove to the manipulation to misuse our energy, our attention and the tipping of our personal wheel. By the way our Wheel can cause the tipping pivoting of the Earths personal wheel because all of OUR wheels along with all living things on her are her relations and experiences. First Nation people teach me that you take something, force something and something else will pay for it to adjust or attempt to adjust the wheel back into balance.

Of Course we want what we want in that minute, that week but is it worth it in the end? Most will never know because there is not enough awareness to understand what you are trying to get versus the consequences down the road and what must be giving up. Everything that comes to you in a balance way jives with what is already have on your wheel and in your life and extreme force, conjuring will changes everything I have seen it wipe a whole wheel off, the loose of everything. You may, all of sudden get a slice of consciousness, maybe even get a blink of understanding of what has been done, but the two main stay patterns still exist in you and the strongest is that of going into holding on, do not take another step please god save my kid, but still cannot connect all the dots or adopt a center of balance to full see that your desires, want an attempts to pull them on to your wheel tilting it started to erase the child’s life from your wheel, from your reality in attempt to balance it. Then there is the anger that emerges because GOD did not save your child, because you created an out of balance wheel and the health of your kid was traded for more money, a husband, a house, another drink and whatever else we desire. I know that this seems like such a harsh way to put it but it applies to anything and everything we have a relationship with. We could lose our home in the same manner.

Please remember that I am trying to write about something that I myself have had to learn and most of this teaching does not have a language, it comes in a transfer from the teacher to the student. If it sounds like one hand clapping kind of dialog and you cannot grasp it, please just let it simmer in you and maybe it will become something from in you down the road.

The New Ager’s like to tell us that the choice is between fear and love. It seems like a simple choice; however in my teachings of what I have been taught fear is a byproduct. That our choice is to always be in balance in the center of our wheel and that is that, there is nothing worldly to gain like love or fear, good or bad ceases to exist and becomes the truth of being and is what it is, without all the labels or mess, clutter that this world makes up and we assimilate into the subconscious mind.

When something shows up that steals our untrained attention and we react out of fear which is the byproduct it underwent the deeper layers of emotion we could say or unconscious behavior, our auto pilot default system first. The fear, savior, do something always is the first defense what we do not usually see or feel are the under working chemicals / emotions that when we build awareness and personal work with ourselves will show themselves. So we have fear which is the first defense, the next layer down is the anger, which can flare up if the fear activation, the do something does not hold up. Then we use the anger default program and usually whatever made it through can be stopped once we over react, become a nightmare or wild animal. However the deeper level that most people will never see unless they do some heavy personal work is the guilt. The anger trigger is such a strong one that it keeps anyone including ourselves from every seeing the guilt, ever. We may feel the guilt as panic attacks; I feel that most heart issues are related to the guilt program that is like a gene of some kind of genetic program within us.
We live in a way that we cannot see the guilt and in some cases there is simple no vocabulary for it, I have found in my own life that it is a societal workings and early on in your life the training of it came in looks, grunts and other non vocabulary behavior from everyone around you. Which makes it that much more complicated to bring into a frame work of understanding. This guilt not only triggers the holding on pattern but it also triggers that failure process in us and in some case the giving up which is basically no different than the holding on. Since both of them stop any progress in any direction for a length of time or life time. When we can start to notice, step into the guilt which means we are going to have to feel it, sit with it, we are not going to be able to our think through it, since it is a non verbal arrangement. Our choice to break through so that we may gain some kind of balance on our wheel in ourselves is to sit with the suffering of it, the panic of it and do nothing, offer no reaction and each time we do so we let go of it a bit more, the hold it has over us. How you came to this place does not matter, who is to blame does not matter those are reactions, illusions the subconscious needs to throw up to keep you from looking and dealing with the feeling of intensity that guilt is and the chemical triggers that our brain under goes whenever the system is breached by such things that expose it.

What I am attempting to offer here is that when we move into, we react to, we get stuck places of holding on or giving up in the process of failure that is a chemical trigger in the brain causing it to seem so much more that it is, we should sit, even lock yourself in a closet if you must, hold yourself, breath and let it go. When your wheel of life has been leaning so harshly to one side and the people, relationships, resources are sliding off the end or about to, just step back to the center, hold yourself and let go of whatever it is that may be gone now, that may have slide off and know that there is much more to add to your wheel of experiences today, tomorrow by keeping yourself aware, not giving up or holding on as reactions to failure and the inner guilt. I leave with a pray. As I know this process is walking straight up hill with no visible path kind. You have to find your own way and keep trying until your wheel is in full balance and you are the center of your personal wheel and personal universe.

May you continue to bring yourself to the center of your personal wheel in a good way. May you become balanced with all your relations in a good way. May you learn to hold your attention to the place of balance with in you, thus holding the balance for all things here in a good way. May you find your balance in a good way to hold a piece of balance for our precious Mother Earth before it is too late.
So it is, so shall it be, NOW! AHO

Grow Food, Be Free and Live For a Living,

Business She is a Changing…

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Over 10 years ago I began to build a new paradigm in the business models from my philosophies, practices based in shamanism and my principles from my private practice in energy and structural medicine. I wanted to bring new qualities and ancient wisdom to the corporate and business worlds. When the ideas started to emerge from the spirit world I
had no idea what do to with them and started a long process of putting one foot in front of the other breaking trail into the unknown.

I have fully incorporated these notions into human health, animal health, environmental health, agriculture health in my years on this planet. Moving out into “business health” began in 2003 but was not until 2006 that it met with the public until that time I was
referral only consulting from investors in alternative wellness centers in the USA and abroad. Since 2006 I have worked on over 25 projects being the development consultant.
I have specifically worked with CEO’s, Business, Corporations and grass roots
projects that fall into the alternative markets. These markets cover alternative medicine and health, Spiritual communities, organic agriculture and green industry products to name a few. Though there is constant upgrading of information and the ability to act on it I feel pretty adept these days in the business realm and to be honest, who better to teach new ways of doing business than someone who has had to reach out on her own and create systems of marketing, advertising, networking in areas of the alternative from nothing, I can tell you there are no books on the subjects for us that work in markets that
are discouraged, attacked and in some case illegal gutted. I have been under such attacks for years I came out fighting. I have citizen lobbied to retain rights as in the one to choose the kind of work I want to do, the right to choose whatever kind of medicine I want, the right to be free, the right to be happy and bring ideas in that better the world in which I live. I have learned law on my own and the several kinds that can apply to any given situation. I
have been in private practice “wholestic” for money working on humans and animals for over 25 years now and I had to figure out how to be all the hats in my business.

In the beginning I discussed these ideas with other amazingly talented women. My desire was to network building a team of individuals to create a new system/s of business that assisted a company into earth stewardship. When I say company I mean from the largest
corporation, to the mom and pop and to the individual person who is self employed. Creating long term support, couching, hands on teaching while bringing new levels of awareness and the effects of the business we do. I wanted to go into a business do an evaluation find the areas where imbalance that were creating the most amount of drag and start from there. I did quit a bit of research on some of the new age business consulting groups that built team work and other such ideas within companies. However they seemed to have a copy/paste format for every company. I wanted to douse the company, open a
candid dialog with the people at the company, and dive into the heart of the company to construct the right and perfect system for each company. Maybe a healing of the land under the building where the company occupies might be needed, maybe the energy grid of the building needs an over haul, maybe the company could move better location, maybe the whole system of  communication or health quality within the systems of the building is needed. It is a vast subject with many parts and could fill a 1000 page book. My personal experience in consulting for such companies making the turn to wholestic ways of doing business is that I have no idea until I step foot on site. Then I am shown the picture, I can then start putting the pieces together and find what is missing, then together we build a
structure to support the missing parts and I show hands on how to implement the
new pieces into the puzzle while offering support all the way through until the
structure is solid and the flow of energy is clear.

If you can see something in your mind you can create it. That is how I have felt about this new work in business. I was met with “that will never work” by every woman I contacted
about putting a team together. I came to realize that they were unwilling to do the work, to put their person/s out there in case it caused them some kind of long term damage to their careers. Even though they full heartedly knew and saw the need for change, spiritual change in the business world. I saw fear and the need for them to get a pay check; they were not willing to leave “security” to do the right thing as in following their inner truth in regards to business. We seem to be caught on so many hooks by the business world no wonder there has not been any change to the draconian practices. More issues grow daily about the
corporations power over the whole world and resources. Our resources that are being depleted! I had to step out alone and follow my inner voice and build on
my own what the new businesses could look like in the world I which I lived!

Business she is a changing for sure and the only way one can know for sure is signs. What I do for business or corporations as I design a system from the ground up literally for each company based on assessment of where they currently are. I use the spirit world to help
me put the pieces together that I may be missing in the process of fully
understanding the hidden issues of what is going in the companies and sometimes
the hidden stuff is beyond belief!

In the future I hope to offer a full system and support for wholeistic change of companies. You can visit the website and look under business and see what the offerings are now. Remember that the website contains general ideas and sometimes not all the work
that goes on behind closed doors for a company can be spoken about.

About 6 years ago I had put a brief advertisement up on an alternative site for healing professionals. One of the items I listed for healing was my work in shamanism for business. Not one month after putting this page up I was getting email and calls about this work. It
started out with a job for a CEO of a large agriculture company. In the process of firing people who were stealing from this company, (heads of the company) there was an evil energy that lingered and hovered. It was thick in the areas where these men had offices at the head quarters. Not one person who worked at this company would take the empty offices nor walk near them. The energy was dark to my surprise people who claimed not spiritual affiliation sensed this energy. I worked in the back ground with the CEO behind closed doors for several weeks until I could collect the information I needed. I traveled to the city where the company is and I did a serious energy cleanse of the large building and put in a new energy grid to support the company in the new direction. I consulted for the CEO for several months after assisting the changes and keeping everything on tract. I even went down to look at buildings with realtors for this company to find a better building that supported the companies new direction and they moved in with in a year after the initial
contact with me. The business is outstanding and the employees love their
company and jobs now! This was not the end the company went on to make many new
changes that took into account all living beings involved with the productions and products.

Another corporation job I did was dealing with the employees. The CEO wanted a different perspective in how to get along with the people in the company and motivate them, create happiness and a desire to work as a whole. That company had serious predatorily energy.
There were a few at the top that treated the lower ranks in an abusive way, especially women. When we polled employees by the CEO sending out and email with questions for them to respond to we found that 90 percent of the employees were afraid to come to work, afraid to be there, felt that they were on thin ice all the time. We asked in the same email what would make their job better. What could be done in their eyes to correct their experience at their job? I have to tell you that at every job I have done corporations, businesses, self employed, grass roots, individual working for these companies the answers to questions asked are always similarly the same. People want their jobs to have a
feeling of “family” environment, to be included, to be heard and supported not
just be looked at as a number with a dollar sign at the front.

The CEO began to get an understanding of what was happening at his company. Like many he had been trained in certain ways of doing business, old models that do not work anymore in this day and age. I began to work my magic in creating a step by step process of change and he put it into motion. This CEO felt terrible about the treatment of his people
who did the work, the foundation of the company. He had been to busy in the past to make regular contact with the steadfast back bone workers and it was a mistake that was destroying the company from the inside out. Today that company is a much different place and the people who work there have smiles, love their jobs and most importantly trust their CEO the captain of their ship!

If the key in business is creating a family atmosphere then why don’t more companies do it? Why do they continue to prey on employees, competition, the environment, communities? The answer is complicated and more than one can believe or fully know unless you get in and start digging. It is layers and layers of bottom lines, guidelines, authority, reward and punishment, rules, regulations that need to get looked through like boxes of old stuff. Several steps we usually apply when you clean out a garage after 30 or 40 years: pull it all out, dig through it, sorting, recycling, through out, cleaning, painting, selling off what is no longer needed, new structures to hold the things kept so they are easily accessed and so forth. It can be such an overwhelming process in business to do this work. However it
must be done in order to build something new. I find that in many cases it is almost better to start over however you loose the branding and name of a company with a long history. New logos created in a magically way with intention can be done and have stronger power than the old ones. Most old school brands you see on the market are sigils created from intention. However they have been created to control the masses for money and power. Just think if you created the logos with intentions of healing the earth, healing others,
community, health and still make money? Anything can be done.

Sometimes it is the way people have been taught to run businesses, their own fear and insecurity, the bottom line is always a big one. However if you are in alignment with the earth, people, community you will have a much bigger profit and happier life.

Recently there has a been a big surge of people in business from all walks of business asking me questions with a desire to know what I could do for their business, company and life. I see the markets changing and sad to say that it has everything to do with people not being able to keep up, exhaustion with current way things are done which is creating sickness and disease not only in the people, environments but in the companies themselves. Do not kid yourself, like does attract like and you are seeing this more and more.

The average age of death for CEO’s is 60. Something really has to change if the energy of the person running the company is that bad of shape, which makes the energy of the system top to bottom sick, diseases, tired, unhappy and pushed past a point of living. I see
change happening. I see more people leaving these systems of business. People do not want to give their life essence for money that they will never spend or mostly not enough money made with horrendous amount of hours to these companies that does work either. If the CEO dies at age 60 when people can easily live to 90 these days what does that tell you about the company you are working for? That maybe the focus is sickness, disease and death. Heart disease seems to be the number one killer of CEO’s dyeing. That tells me that no only is the company sick since the energy would flow down from the CEO into the company but that the heart of the company is sick, damaged and that there is no heart in
the business that the heart was destroyed.

Americans are past the 11th hour on so many levels and there is nothing left to push us with, no bushes left to beat and stress is the number one factor killing us young for companies
that have no heart, that kill there top executives for the sake of a dollar!

Within the last 2 weeks I have taken on 6 new clients for business ventures and helping them make the transition with the support and couching that I bring to the table. I really believe we can change how we do business, how everything is affected by the business we
do. I can see business changing before my eyes, people awakening to what they want to spend their times doing. I had a thought the other day about this world that conveys how we do business. “If people really knew how bad our environments are and were told that we have damaged the biosphere to the point of extinction of all live on earth would they continue to work to pay their bills? What would be the point? For me I would spend the rest of the time I had living in nature, even in a tent. What would it matter if it was over, game
over. The fact of the matter is that it is fact about our biosphere, so are you going to continue to work for companies that give you nothing and have taken your life expectancy? You have to figure that out yourself.

For me I use my time and life essence on business that matters, people that are doing good work, for all of us that want a better world. I no longer fund companies with my money that are operating the same old system of death and destruction.  Otherwise I spend whatever time I have left in nature and what seems to others as poverty. You need very little to be
happy. I have found the less I have the more time I have to live and help others live.

The businesses I choose to consult for cross agriculture, land developers, financial consultants and institutions. It is individual, whole companies, buildings, land, water, products, air and our communities. We are looking for answers to have better quality lives in the process of doing business. I am seeing a boom in my work with business and that
for me is a sign that the work I have done and I am doing is changing the world
around me. That people are starting to ask questions about how to change, how
they can give their energy and creative ideas a place in the betterment of the world, to do good without loosing anything.

If were are to change anything in this world it has to start with the controller/s of this world, the corporations, businesses and how they do business and how they treat the world around us down to the land their office building is on and the resources use to sustain an
unsustainable way of business and life.

We are all players in it; all of us work for our business or for someone else’s business. Our individual choices of how we work, the work we do and how we are treated for the work we do all boils down to “us”, you and I. I can teach a CEO how to grasp the new economics
systems, but it comes down to the people who are involved in the company which
includes: employees, grounds keeper, cleaning crews, consumers, builders, producers, transportation systems, all levels to push for that change. It is how you make your money and spend the money you make that speaks the words that these corporations refuse to hear.

Business she is a changing the new economics system theories are finally taking hold and we may actually see in my generation “the me generation” the beginning of healing of what we have allowed to go on since the industrial revolution began in recent times and what it has done to us, the earth, our water, our air, our lives, our families, our bodies
and the fabric of the reality we are to tired and exhausted to continue in.

Dream a new world one that includes life, having a heart and sustainability for all living beings here on earth. The time is now tomorrow is too late!

Grow Food, Be Free & Live for a Living!


Releasing your Energy from the Monetary System…


I was sent this piece I am presenting in this blog. Again like most of what I get it never had an author. I would post it if there was one attached to.

None the less I feel that we need to be aware of what controls we our under and to “revoke the energy” we have been trained and accepted these attachments and we should treat them as if they are demonic spirits. Which I believe is more fact than fiction in this world.

We did not create the money systems that we fully embrace. Our Creator did not create the money system either. Since money rules our world by choice. Our lives have not been consciously created by us; we did not have all the information about choosing how we want to live our lives out. The work we end up doing it is usually based on earning a income and the potential of you as a earned income to your country, state, irs, family and friends never as a divine being of creation or that you came here to co-creating a world with the grand Creator. If you could what kind of world would you create?

We could spend hours on the how’s, why’s but for me this also creates more wasted time and energy on a lie. Best advice is to remove yourself and your energy from the equation as fast as you can never looking back, it does not matter. What matters is that you can change and change how you use your energy. You have a purpose, no matter who you are, you matter to this world and all that is. It is never a life of doing with out money, money is not real and it controls you. Seems to me the biggest fraud we live in is about money, if we have it, if we do not, this does not define anything about whom we are, ever. It only defines a system of our enslavement and the perpetual slavery of our future generations. A continual cycle that will never end until there is nothing left on this planet unless we change, you change and choose the destiny you came here to perform I am pretty sure it had nothing to do with money.

May you reclaim you energy from the system that enslaves you, may you find a place that you can recover your sanity and may you find the truth about who you are without money and the system that is defining you as earning potential or are not.

Grow Food, Be Free & Living for a Living!


I call to all spiritual contracts that exist within my past, present and future beings, selves and existence in this dimension and time stream, all time streams above and below the earth centric sign wave of co-existence. At this exact moment in the ever-present co-creating moment, I summon all DNA linage ancestors to create a unified-proper spiritual court of equity. So I may find remedy and resolve with all contracts that have inserted fine print during the pre-birth and birth process.  

I call to the 4 elements, Air, Earth, Water and Fire. I call forth the spiritual court of equity with all ancestors in union with the migration patterns of all soul family’s incarnating on earth mother. I call the primary ancestor spirits of earth mother to come into this spiritual court of equity to hold space for the reading and removal of all contracts dealing with the energetic exchange of value systems. 

I call forth the earth global dreamtime. I call to the unified dreamtime societies of all earth to come to this spiritual court of equity too provide their complete wisdom to this sacred moment in which I reclaim my sovereign spirit authority for all exchange of energy for value systems. 

I here by revoke all spiritual contracts with the primary banking families. I revoke all spiritual contracts with all banking family crests. I revoke, remove and dissolve all banking family trusts that use my name as a number for energy harvesting. I revoke all assumed rights used by the DNA based king-ship, lordship, or manor roll contracts that function with in all banking families. I here by state I do not consent to rule by the few. I do not consent to rule by the banking families. 

I do not consent with the assumed authority of the banking families funding the free court systems. I revoke all rights, privileges and rules created by the family crest based or DNA linage based banking families to dominate and control the free court system. I here by revoke all spiritual contracts that define the bank system as being intertwined with my freewill. I revoke all fine print with in all of my soul contracts past, present and future that deal with any banking system as a 3d-matrix debt collection or energy harvesting system.  

I demand the instant repayment of all energy and 3d matrix representations of value. I do not consent to the use of corrupt courts as a means of judgment. I revoke all rights of 3d based courts assumptions of power with any 3d exchange for value systems created for the follies of the banking families. 

I here by revoke all consent of ink based, web based or energy based signature harvesting systems. I revoke all rights to use my 3d matrix signature to represent me in any court system, spiritual or 3d matrix. 

I do not consent to the use of my soul contracts as a means of energy harvesting from any of the primary banking systems created by the primary soul contract holding banking families. I revoke all rights to use my name in any form of banking family coat of arms contracts. I demand the instant and permanent erasure of all signatures used to represent me in the banking exchange for value system. 

I do not consent to the use of my life-force for any exchange for value banking system that is not completely transparent with all transactions, spiritual or 3d-matrix. 

I here by state that all bank based buildings using sacred geometry have NO POWER over my sovereign free will. I here by revoke all spiritual contracts with all banking systems that use sacred geometry as a means of energy harvesting or a tool for domination and control. 

I revoke all rights, privileges and assumptions with all buildings that use sacred geometry as fine print soul contract enforcement systems. I do not consent to any sacred geometry building to house, hold or transfer any of my life force to any banking system on all of earth’s time lines and or co-existing dimensions. I here by revoke all spiritual contracts with all sacred geometry systems that use my life force with out direct consent from me and all of my soul family ancestors in complete agreement. 

I revoke all rights, assumptions and rules that create a new sacred geometry banking system. I here by declare that all banking families and systems are now banished from operating in secret, covert or overt ways to harvest my energy in any way shape or form. 

I here by declare that earth mother is now in dominion with me for all energy exchange for value systems. I call forth all the ancestors to honor this reading of my freewill and enter it into the earth Akashi record for all sentient kind to understand our freedom comes with the use of freewill at all times.